Today just felt like a good day to post another pic. I made this my tiled background on my laptop. Looks odd, but I like it.

Update from that new job situation. I'm only allowed to earn a certain amount on summer work study, and the way things look now, I can't work at the library and the new job with the hours that I wanted to at first, and still try to chase after a commission based job on campus (which I finally interviewed for on Friday). Discovering such depressing info on the Friday of the only three day weekend of the quarter didn't place me into the best mood, but I went with it. The grad party that was thrown in honor of my cousins went fine, a laid back family function that started 2 hours late, that ended up being a trip out to the movies by the end of the night. I got like 15 billion papers due this week, plus Kanye West is going to be on campus this Thursday, and I happened to schedule a group meeting at the exact same time he hits the stage. Maybe if things are in order we can crunch out the info in 30 minutes so that I can go see him on stage. Its not too often when you get an entertainer of his calibur to come to the University of Cincinnati, for a free performance. Then again, Coretta Scott King is going to be here as the graduation speaker in a couple of weeks. I wonder if she knows that Cincinnati needs some serious healing right now.
Digression...
With some planning and rescheduling of hours, I think that this work study issue can be worked out. Now if it would only stop raining outside. Then again this can be a good time to get some work done, I can't say that anything outside is distracting me.

 

Yay! Starting next month, I'm going go be working here as a work-study student, as well as at Langsam Library during the Summer Quarter. Went for the interview this past Friday, and it went well, plus it was brief, only a half an hour. I've been so caught up in getting all these assignments done that I haven't had the chance to get relatively excited about going to Montreal next month. Actually two weeks from Sunday. Plus I'm trying to get a commission based job, and do some internship work with a local music company this summer. I'm (trying to get) on a mission!!!

I was extremely excited to see my cousins grad last night. Mekaeila and Dalkesha both went to Hughes Center, which is across the street from where I am. It was great to go to a graduation ceremony, the last one I been to was for my cousin Troy and friend Mauriel back in 2001. They went to the same school also. From all the shouting and screaming that all of us did last night, I'm surprised that anyone of us isn't hoarse. It was just so energetic to be in the Cintas Center, cheering the both of them on, makes me look that much forward to mines in December, hopefully in December. It better be in December, the word gets around quick in my family. Just last Thursday, another one of my cousins was on campus promoting her job at a plasma care facility. One of the first things she said to me was "I heard you were graduating this December..." I responded with a "Dang, the word gets out quick! I just told my Mom just two weeks ago". And I heard that she had just moved out from her parent's place and has an apartment now. She told me that she just moved out like a week ago when I saw her. Thus, further proving my point that gossip gets out quick, at least on my Mom's side of the family.

Back to the graduation stuff from last night. My Aunt and Grandma were on some other stuff, to say the least, when neither one of them decided to go to the ceremony. And my Aunt came up here from Alabama. Enough said. I'm going to have to begin giving people ultimatum now in preparation for mines. If you're acting an ass, you can't go. If you copped an attitude over my cousin's graduation, you can't be there for neither one of mines. I already know now that I don't have the time or the patience to deal with someone acting a fool and waste a ticket when it can go to someone else who seriously gives a crap. So to keep from hearing anyone gripe and complain last night, a few of us (Mekaeila, here little sister, K'nya, our other cousin, I'yanna, my mom and myself) went out to Applebee's for a celebration dinner. The service was bad, but the food was good. I finally got to try that Blue cheese Sirloin steak they constantly showed on the commercials, for what seemed like an eternity. Which reminds me, that's going to be my snack when I get home this evening.

So, all and all, it was a great evening, and the energy was off the charts! Too bad that enthusiasm didn't carry over into today, not yet anyways, and it's already 3:21 in the afternoon. For now I must continue with the rest of the papers I have to type and group projects to collaborate on. At least this weekend coming up is Memorial Day weekend and I get Monday off to relax and get some work done. Knowing me, I'll probably be out shopping for that Montreal trip. :)
(Procrastination: "That's how I got through high school.")

Congrats to all the 2004 grads this year! You know who you are!

I've been meaning to post this pic to archive my whereabouts this quarter. I met Jerry Springer on campus in the newly remodeled (which I know some of my tution went to; they don't say that 'UC stands for Under Construction' for nothing!) Tangeman Center. It was weird that I met him cuz I was just watching his tv show that morning, then met him 90 minutes later. Actually it was quite cool. Call me a nerd for that one, I don't really care. 

This is one of the days where my horoscope seems to be on point:

My Horoscope (Cancer):
Thursday 20 May
Today marks the start of an extremely creative and imaginative four week period for you. It’s time to start listening to your intuition, and trusting your hunches – and it’s also time to start expressing your feelings through some kind of art, crafts or writing. If you want to reorganise or redecorate your bedroom, this is also the perfect day to plan a stylish but practical solution.
www.bbc.co.uk

Must...post...links

Paul
Tala

The links above are from two friends from hs- they have blogs too. Thank you Tala for them. I'm gonna post them at the top soon, once I get a minute to do so. This midquarter burnout is hell. I need a nap...

Diddy Disbands 'Making The Band' Group

That finale on Thursday was shocking. I felt bad for Da Band. Its sad how they went from hella hungry in the first and second seasons to all the overblown drama and egotrippin in the third. Just watching the show taught me what not to do in a group situation.

And now, it's the sixth week of classes. Only got about a month to go before finals. By then I will be tired from all the presentations and papers that I must type. I'm thinking of starting a typing business this summer so that way I can at least get paid for something that I do all the time anyways. Just provide a service to people in the neighborhood; it'll save me from the job hunt for the time being if I get this done by the time I leave for Montreal on June 13th.

Updates on the usual stuff I discuss:

School: I'm actually going to finish in December! So I will get the best Christmas gift afterall, my degree. Getting more hyped about the Montreal trip as the weeks go by. :)
Love: This definitely classifies as a WTF issue. Not much going on. Talking to a few guys cuz I'm bored. Only want 2 of them (not at the same time, that's so not my thing). Would like to settle, but not right now. Hey, I'm in my 20's I'll save the marriage thing for later. Time to mingle!
Work: Still gonna work at Langsam Library until the end of the year. May have an internship pending, depends on the company's needs. Looking for a second job, possibly a third. Hoping to make the typing services my hustle for the summer. Searching for a job sucks!
Dreams: Still want to be a songwriter/singer. Have to learn how to sing in front of people on the spot, never know what could happen. For now, I'm still writing things here and there, and getting my voice on point (i.e. singing songs that are in my key, like Monica, Brandy, etc.)
Etc.: Want to move out the house, but on good terms with my Mom. I hate fighting with her, its frustrating and so unnecessary at times.

This is a little something that I wrote in my mini notebook one night after being out with friends. I forgot to scan it, but it due time, it will be posted. Here's the actual text of what I wrote in the notebook:

4.26.04
I question my maturity sometimes. What makes it even worse it that I'm questioning it at 4:30 am Monday. I look at the people that I grew up with - even the ones I lost contact w/ and just been seeing them recently (just running into them & what not). I look @ everyone else around me and feel like they look their age. Not necessairly act it all the time (kids @ heart, no insults). I'm 21, feeling 16 and look 18, 19 on a good day. The logic is all screwed up on that one. Maybe its just the insomnia & insecurities speaking right now but I feel naive & gullable about life, and I'm about 2B 22 in 2 months. [It's too early/too late to ponder such deep thoughts.] It has a lot 2 do w/ my upbringing. Quite diciplined & structured to the point of asking if it was necessary. I was a good child. Parents were just overprotective. Maybe a bit too much. So when I finally became of age 2 do a couple things, I felt like I was lookin @ the word with a pair of fresh eyes: Perspective was altered immediately (kinda). Maybe not that instantly but it changed. There's something profound that I want 2 say, but that's out the window now. It's 4:40 am. It's hard 2B profound this late @nite/ this early in the AM. Maybe I can sleep better after writing this down. Lets hope so.

End: 4:41am